Song of the day - Power trip - SoMo
Our Love Story..
August 2012, our eyes met. Salsa night at Church for all Nations to be exact. Didn’t think a damn thing of you, wasn’t attracted to you nor did I have any desire to know who you were…. a week later, I was dying to know who you were.
We talked, We hung out, & that was that.
For 6 months you tried and tried to continue to get to know me, you tried to continue to see me. For 6 months I dogged you like a fireball. All of a sudden my heart was tugging in your direction and the reason for that was beyond my thoughts. March 22, 2013 we started dating… that only lasted for 2 weeks and I ran like there was a fire. There were feelings and emotions that I didn’t want. I was in a place in my life were I didn’t care about much but myself. Church? NO! Which was your passion and love. A serious relationship? NO! Which was clearly what you wanted. I came back and disappeared 3 times after I said “I can’t do this, I’m not ready."
Even after I was done going back to you, I still got the urge to text you and know how you were… and I did just that & would stop responding to you mid-conversation… for countless months. I toyed with your heart more than anyone ever should.
…But you never stopped wondering how I was
October & November of 2013 I couldn’t get you out of my head. But I thought there was no chance you’d give me the time of day after all I put you through. You eventually started dating someone else and I knew I had no shot. I let you be and hoped the best for you from a distance.
One Saturday, on February 22, 2014 to be exact… I sucked up my fears and hit you up. I knew you were still dating that girl, but my only hope was that you didn’t hate me too much that I could see how you were. ”Hey, how are you?“& was totally NOT expecting to receive a response. I went about my day, and 30 minutes later I get a response. We got to talking, and didn’t stop. Days later I found out you and your girlfriend had broken up. & I had to ask myself ”Am I going to run? Or do I really want this?“ We hung out for the first time and it was as if we never stopped. Our connection was tighter then anyone could imagine.
We would sit up and talk every night for hours at a time. I left it all in your hands because I had no right to decide where this was going to go. Our conversations always got super deep and very intimate. & I wasn’t scared, I had no desire to run from you, no desire to ignore you. I wanted to see you everyday, all day. We started going to church together, your family and friends were all surprised at the fact that we were trying this again… none of them thought they’d ever see me with you again.
On March 10, 2014 you asked if we could make this official.
You’ve helped me grow in more ways than you can even imagine. You make me feel as if I’m the most amazing female in the entire world. I know for a fact, if it’s in Gods will… you will ask me to marry you; & I’d have NO hesitation about that.
I truly am lucky to have you in my life again. I didnt just get 1 or 2 chances with to be with you… you gave me 5 more than I deserved. You are truly an amazing man of God and I can’t wait to see where our story goes from here.
E hauʻoli hoʻi ʻoe iā Iēhova, a e hāʻawi mai nō ia nou i ka makemake o kou naʻau. - Halelū 37:4
Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He shall give you the desires of your heart. - Psalms 37:4
(Source: paoa, via thedailyhi)
Ten ways to love.
- Listen without interrupting. ( PROVERBS 18 )
- Speak without accusing. ( JAMES 1:19 )
- Give without sparing. ( PROVERBS 21:26 )
- Pray without ceasing. ( COLOSSIANS 1:9 )
- Answer without arguing. ( PROVERBS 17:1 )
- Share without pretending. ( EPHESIANS 4:15 )
- Enjoy without complaint. ( PHILIPPIANS 2:14 )
- Trust without wavering. ( CORINTHIANS 13:7 )
- Forgive without punishing. ( COLOSSIANS 3:13 )
- Promise without forgetting. ( PROVERBS 13:12 )
(via thedailyhi)
"1. If you like someone, wait.
2. Give lots of compliments, even if you’re shy. Everyone else is too.
3. Change. Get a haircut, try new perfume, get new sheets. Become better than you were before.
4. Eat healthier. Learn to cook something fancy.
5. Get up earlier and watch the sun come up.
6. Wear soft clothes, take a bath, drink something warm.
7. Meet someone new, even just a friend.
8. Become closer with your friends and your family. Call your mother. Cry with your best friend. Tell everyone how much you appreciate them.
9. Keep your room clean. Buy some candles. Let the natural light in.
10. Make a list of reasons why you’ll be better off without them. Believe they are true, because they are.
11. Listen to new music.
12. Write everything you’re thinking and feeling. Write letters. Write happy letters, sad letters, and angry letters, even if you’re never going to send them.
13. It’s okay to be sad, but not forever. Sadness is not as beautiful as music makes it seem. Lack of sleep makes your eyes droopy, not deep. Wake up every morning and tell yourself you’re going to have a good day.
14. Go to the library. Don’t forget to look in the music section.
15. Remove them from your life. Get rid of the things they gave you if they make you sad. They’re not worth it. You will never be happy if you continue to hold on to the things that make you sad.
16. Make new memories.
17. Try to find something to appreciate in everything you do or experience.
18. Being alone is okay, you don’t have to surround yourself with people.
19. Become your own best friend. Buy yourself coffee and drink it alone in a cafe. Take your time.
20. Learn to love every bit of yourself."
2. Give lots of compliments, even if you’re shy. Everyone else is too.
3. Change. Get a haircut, try new perfume, get new sheets. Become better than you were before.
4. Eat healthier. Learn to cook something fancy.
5. Get up earlier and watch the sun come up.
6. Wear soft clothes, take a bath, drink something warm.
7. Meet someone new, even just a friend.
8. Become closer with your friends and your family. Call your mother. Cry with your best friend. Tell everyone how much you appreciate them.
9. Keep your room clean. Buy some candles. Let the natural light in.
10. Make a list of reasons why you’ll be better off without them. Believe they are true, because they are.
11. Listen to new music.
12. Write everything you’re thinking and feeling. Write letters. Write happy letters, sad letters, and angry letters, even if you’re never going to send them.
13. It’s okay to be sad, but not forever. Sadness is not as beautiful as music makes it seem. Lack of sleep makes your eyes droopy, not deep. Wake up every morning and tell yourself you’re going to have a good day.
14. Go to the library. Don’t forget to look in the music section.
15. Remove them from your life. Get rid of the things they gave you if they make you sad. They’re not worth it. You will never be happy if you continue to hold on to the things that make you sad.
16. Make new memories.
17. Try to find something to appreciate in everything you do or experience.
18. Being alone is okay, you don’t have to surround yourself with people.
19. Become your own best friend. Buy yourself coffee and drink it alone in a cafe. Take your time.
20. Learn to love every bit of yourself."
— (via kassidyrae)
(via lavieestlamour)
I loved you. I cared about you. I helped you. I supported you. & what’d I get in return? Lies, Pain, Frustration. We were playing a game all based off of your terms. When you wanted to love me. When YOU wanted to care about me. When YOU wanted to be there for me. & me, having the heart I have, being the person I am. Was more then supportive & unfortunately… allowed you to do all that you did to me.
I didn’t stop it when I should’ve. I allowed it. & All the pain I’m feeling once again, because of you… is partially my fault.
I don’t know if you & her will continue talking. If she’s smart, she’ll use me as an example of what you’re capable of. But who knows these days. The “I love you’s” between you two are already flying out. My heart aches. It truly aches. I don’t believe I’ve ever felt this way in my entire life. & I’ve been hurt many times. But you sir, you’re something else. You’re a piece of work.
You are amazing. You are wonderful. You are a nice, sweet, & genuine man. & then You are an asshole. You are an emotional abuser. You are a liar. You are disrespectful. You are a coward. But I am not here to judge. I am not here to yell. I am not here to fight.
All I wanted was the truth. Was for you to be man enough, the man I know you to be. & be more than real with me. But did I get that? No sir. No I did not.
It’s only been a few months & we’ve been on an up & down roller coaster for the entire time. When it all started, it was great. You shared with me so many things & I did the same. You showed me how great of a guy you are & can be. You threw me off, and left me with nothing but my own thoughts for a few days.
You came back with apologies & explanations… and I forgave you. Things were great from there. I was happy, you were happy. You met & spent time with my family. & I thought this could be something great. You slipped the words “I love you” and the very next day, you came into the room & slipped the words “I think we should just be friends” literally felt my heart sink to my ass. You left for work & I sat in bed, in tears.
You stopped something that was taking its course all on its own. I was confused, everyone was confused.
I still let you stay with me, didn’t & still don’t have the heart to send you on your way, because I know, you have no where to really go.
I ask for honesty & respect & I feel like I get neither. My hearts invested in you and it’s like you could care less. You lie to me about what you’re doing. Why? Idk. we’re friends right? So why lie? If there’s another girl in your life, tell me. I’ve lost hope in us, because actions speak louder than words.
I’ve done all I can do to make you happy. However, I’m not happy. I hide the pain & the tears everyday. Wait till I’m alone & let it all out.
When will it be my turn to be happy? I give & I give, & I get nothing in return….. ever.
My heartaches.
"I need a guy who’ll play on the playground like he’s five, but takes the right things seriously."
— (via remembertosmileyou)
(via thatsamoangirl-blog)
